When one door closes, another one has opened up new opportunities for me, such as pursuing a Master’s degree in Cultural Studies at Universitas Indonesia.
Yes, I’ve decided that I’m so ready to go back to school and be a full-time student.
Now, would I have liked to continue working? Of course. But really, when is ever “the right time” to do something? If you feel a new opportunity coming along, I say go for it.
Is this scaring me? Oh you bet it does. There have been one too many accounts of me doubting myself; that I could even finish a Master’s within 2 years, that I could somehow change the world with only my love for literature.
Then, I came across this video of Will Smith (yes) talking about fear when I scrolled through my Facebook timeline. He gave a scenario on skydiving with your friends and how your fear builds up as that day comes closer. It arrives eventually and, you’re left with no other choice but to jump. And when you drive
Then I came across this video of Will Smith talking about fear when I scrolled through my Facebook. He gave a scenario on skydiving with your friends and how fear builds up as that day comes closer. It arrives eventually and you have no other choice but to jump before finally coming to the realization that the fall is your most “blissful” time on Earth: “God places the best things in life on the other side of terror,” was what he said. That lifted me up for sure, and I can’t wait to embrace this new chapter in my life. Cultural studies, I’m
I’ve decided to base the theme of fear on my caption after reading my friend’s @briana_s recent blog post about her own art of balancing and embracing life’s uncertainties and challenges. That you can achieve anything you set your mind and heart to.
Right now, I’m almost 2 weeks in at university and I’m slowly but surely settling back into the rhythm of studying and well, being a student once again! Commuting by train is also a plus side to everything as it makes me look forward into starting my day despite how crowded it can be at rush hour. It’s gonna be an eventful 2 years, my friends so cheers to more life and learning!
To end this post, I’d like to add a little quote from the short story I’m reading by Ken Liu titled “State Change”:
“All my life I thought my soul was in those cigarettes, and I never even thought about the box. I never paid any attention to that paper shell of quiet, that enclosed bit of emptiness.
An empty box is a home for the lost spiders you want to carry outside. It holds loose change, buttons that have fallen off, needles and thread. It works tolerably well for lipstick, eye pencil, and a bit of blush. It is open to whatever you’d like to put in it.
And that’s how I feel: open, careless, adaptable. Yes, life is now truly just an experiment.
What can I do next?
Anything.”
